Pat and Bee's Life

At the speed of crazy!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Comic-Con Coverage

I've been a busy Little Bee!

Freaky Creatures

DCUO Pre-look

WoW Minis

Vids from first night!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

The Sunday Ridgecrest Flooded

It rained an inch and a half in what seemed like an hour on Sunday, and the whole place flooded pretty bad.

Here are some pics, and some more pics.

And here's video #1....that's the American Legion building they're helping to evacc, and Video #2.

Yesterday, the AC was out at all of Mic Lab on base, so Pat got to come home early. Can't run the electronics with no cooling. Of course, Monique had to stay. Poor Monique!

Sunday night it was so humid I almost died. But it's back to normal now, though a little cooler then it should be. I'm not complaining!

Tomorrow I leave for San Diego, so that I can cover Comic-Con! WOO!

Real Dinosaur! WOO!

Extinct, my ASS! from The Original Joe Fisher on Vimeo.

Thanks to TecnoBrat from Wowhead for the link from Gizmodo!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

The Hidden Demons

This is something that, until recently, I never really talked to anyone about. I'd like to thank Mom for talking it out with me in San Diego, and helping me come to a conclusion. The issue? I get depressed.

Doesn't really seem like a big deal. Everyone gets depressed sometimes, it's part of life. And if that weren't enough, the STUPID "Depression Hurts" commercials from Cymbalta are enough to make me not want to even consider that I could have a problem that begets a commercial THAT painfully stupid.

Anyway. Everyone gets depressed!! But sometimes, and for long periods of time it gets to the point where it effects everything.

I can't bring myself to get out of bed, I sleep a lot. I ignore Pat and his cheery self, I don't talk to him, I avoid him and shut him out of my life. More then that, I get angry and defensive when my sweet, sweet, husband tries to help me get out of a "bad mood" or horrible day.

I often find myself drinking alcohol during these times, often excessively, and at inappropriate times during the day.

I avoid any contact with friends, don't answer my cell phone, avoid work. I, truly, just want to be left the fuck alone to be miserable and hate life and everything in it.

I cry for hours, for no reason. And while I can usually snap myself out of a bad day, or recognize a PMS moment or two (and normally warn Pat before I go crazy!), I am never able to pull myself out of this void of happiness. Trying only leads to frustration, which leads to a knowledge that I'm a worthless being who can't even make myself happy with all I have!

I'm a very blessed person damn it! I have NO reason to feel like this. But that's kinda the rub, isn't it?

This isn't something people really talk about, outside of stupid commercials that make me violent. Well, I decided to start talking, cause I'm fucking sick of whatever this is stealing my life for weeks at a time, and having no recourse but to live it.

So I'm done. I've started doing researching into anti-depressants and have scheduled a visit with my doctor to discuss my options.

I always thought the whole genetic, or hormone imbalance thing was a joke. I still do. I'm not fat, prone to drink alcohol, or depressed because of my genes or hormones (well, it could be hormones, but I'm not broken damn it!!). I don't know why I'm that way, but whatever it takes to stop not living my life, and having this interfere with my husband's life, I'm going to do it. I don't care.

This morning I'm doing some research on medications and notice that those MAOI's the drug commercials are always warning you about are anti-depressants! But even worse, there are food restrictions!

*When taking an MAOI, you must avoid taking certain medications (including some over the counter medicines like Sudafed) and eating certain foods such as aged cheese, wine and beer, avocados, bananas, canned meats, yogurt, soy sauce, packaged soups and sour cream.

It is important to note that you should not drink alcoholic beverages while taking antidepressant medicines, since alcohol can seriously interfere with their beneficial effects.

So those are out! Not gonna give up cheese, avocados, and sour cream. Giving up alcohol is gonna be a toughy too! Either way though. This is good for me. Good for Pat. Excellent for our relationship and for me being me.

Thank you all for your support and love. And thanks Mom, for talking about something everyone loves to avoid. I love you!

Friday, July 18, 2008

Backs, Houses, Stupid Contractors....argh

Previously, and more previously.


The guys came to finish up the last little bit of the house, and haul everything off on Monday. They forgot to haul everything off, forgot a piece of hardware, and didn't use that wood putty stuff in the last bit of my bathroom door casing. I am pissed, and tired of dealing with it.

I hurt my back in San Diego, so I'm not 100%, and I leave for Comic-Con next Wednesday, which should be exciting, but I'd better be able to walk damn it!!

We've moved almost everything into the house, taken most of the stuff to the dump that needs to go, and given the rest to the Women's Shelter or Goodwill, where appropriate. We really cleaned up!!!

I've gotten all of my books listed on Shelfari, which I'm very excited about!

Hopefully, soon...this housing ordeal will all be over with!

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Off to San Digeo

I leave tomorrow to visit family and friends in San Diego. I'm very much looking forward to it! I'll be gone a week or so. I'll blog and take pics from there!


SD - I'm comin' home!

Friday, July 04, 2008

Happy Independence Day!!!

Keep it safe, and if you're driving, keep it sober. And if you drink and drive - I hope you die without killing anyone else. Literally.

Otherwise though - ENJOY THE HOLIDAY!


Thursday, July 03, 2008

More Ad Issues

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

San Diego Here I Come!

la la la la la la la!

Ladies and gentleman it gives me great pleasure to be going "home" for a week or so to visit family, and hang out with old friends!

The beach, days off at Barnes and Noble, MALLS! FOOD! Weather that isn't over 105ยบ daily! Movie theaters that don't suck!!!! Entertainment! Casinos! Traffic (Yes, I miss that)!, I can't wait!

Oh yeah, and my

I can't wait to hang out with everyone!!!! I'll be staying with Beth while I'm there!


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