The Craziness That Is Life

There are times when I sit at my computer and stare off hard into my wallpaper (currently Star Trek Online, and previously, lolcats).

I should most likely be cleaning, doing laundry, picking up, organizing books, writing an article or something much more productive. But I find staring soothing. Focusing on nothing gives me a chance to put my thoughts in order. I think about Pat, my life, my dog, my horrible neighbors that make me want to kill their dog, Ridgecrest....which is kinda growing on me! Anyway, you get the idea.

I get to think. Don't get snippy, I know it can hurt sometimes. :o

The other day I found myself thinking lyrics to a song I haven't heard in a long time. And then I promptly forget them. So I sit here now, staring at my desktop after having logged out of WAR which lagged so bad I simply couldn't play.

I'm hoping the song will once again pop into my head, I remember thinking it was really appropriate to my life now - but if I can't remember it, I can't really analyze how, or why.

Maybe I'll just go play some pogo. That sounds fun.

B

The Journey

Many of you know that up until a month ago, Pat and I have called the cops on our neighbors about 6 times over the last 2 years. Always due to their damn barking dog at 5:45 in the morning.

To be fair, it is anytime between 5:30 and 6:30 and it lasts until 8 or 9.

Over the last 30 days we've called the police at least 6 more times simply because we couldn't sleep.

Actually, it was deeper. I haven't been sleeping well at all due to my tooth. So after being up between 3am and 5 and then being woken up 30 minutes later with a noise that starts the throbbing back....well, ya just want violence to ensue.

Anyway! Apparently our neighbors have finally gotten the point. The dogs were quiet Friday. So here it is Monday morning at 4:45 and I'm waiting for my pain pills to kick in. Scared that they'll start barking any moment!

Hold that thought!

Last night I took puppy out to play for a few minutes, and they were out in their yard with their dogs being all loud and sounding half drunk (they always do).

They made comments to their dog, who started getting excited about puppy being out like:

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  No! NO! You're not allowed to bark! You're not allowed to be a dog.
• 
  Stop that! That doggie's not allowed to have friends!
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  Their dog NEVER BARKS (followed by random cussing), so God forbid you should!

It went on for a little bit, and I laughed out loud mostly for their benefit and also because....well, it was funny.

But we came in right after because I didn't feel it was right to antagonize them, and because....well, I was getting close to talking to my dog out loud, and the things I would have said would have goaded one of them into doing something I'd regret.

Back to the previous thought.....
It's now 4:55, and I hope that anti-bark thing Pat and I bought at Wal-Mart starts when they put their wretched dogs outside in a few moments.

My pain pills will kick in after another 30 minutes or so, and then I could really use some sleep.

:(

Voted!

The horrible thing about voting by mail is that I really love those "I Voted" stickers, so here ya go!

President: I voted for McCain. Actually I voted against socialism, but who's counting?
SSUSD School Board: I voted for Tom Johnson. Actually, more against Lochead and Martin, the incumbents.
Ridgecrest City Council: I voted for Walter Maurer. Down with Chip Holloway and his evil brigade! Vote out incumbents! NO NEW TAXES (since ya'll can't figure out what to do with the old ones)!
IWV Airport District Director: I voted against Charlon, cause they already have enough clout in this town.

IWV Water District: Incumbents FTW! No screwing up Kern here yet!

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State Props:
1. No!
2. Yes!
3. No!
4. Yes!
5. No!
6. Yes!
7. No!
8. Yes!
9. Yes!
10. No!
11. No!
12. Yes!

City Prop N: HELLLLS NO!

Don't forget to vote everyone!

Gasp!

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To My Next Door Neighbors

Hate:

Hatred or hate is a word that describes intense feelings of dislike. It can be used in a wide variety of contexts, from hatred of inanimate objects to hatred of other people.

Philosophers have offered many influential definitions of hatred. Rene Descartes viewed hate as an awareness that something is bad, combined with an urge to withdraw from it. Baruch Spinoza defined hate as a type of pain that is due to an external cause. Aristotle viewed hate as a desire for the annihilation of an object that is incurable by time. Finally, David Hume believed that hate is an irreducible feeling that is not definable at all.[1]

In psychology, Sigmund Freud defined hate as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness[2]. In a more contemporary definition, the Penguin Dictionary of Psychology defines hate as a "deep, enduring, intense emotion expressing animosity, anger, and hostility towards a person, group, or object."[3] Because hatred is believed to be long-lasting, many psychologists consider it to be more of an attitude or disposition than a (temporary) emotional state (see rage).

To the people at 312 E Wilson in Ridgecrest California: I hate you. I hate your dogs. I hate that your dogs bark for a minimum of 3 hours while the morning sky is still dark.

I hate that they wake both Pat and I up daily. That our fan isn't enough to cover the sound. That calling the police does nothing, that calling you does nothing.

I hate that feeding your dogs antifreeze is against my moral code as well as the law. Let's face it, at this point my moral code JUST WANTS SOME FRICKIN SLEEP!

I hate that you people are so incredibly smug in your derision of everyone else around you that you can't see that your selfish behavior is slowly (it's been *2* years people) killing me.

I hate that you won't let me exercise and socialize your dog for you. That you won't let our dogs play together to help release their boredom and give them some time to play.

I hate that your old dog died. Even more, I hate that you went out and got a more annoying one.

In closing. I hate you. I wish your dog would die. I would help him to do it if I thought you wouldn't go out and get a rooster just to rub it in.

MAKE YOUR DOG SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING HOLY AND GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is all.

Vote or Suffer Horrible Diseases!

I had a trying time between this one! You pick the quote you agree with most, and then see which candidates you agreed with most often.

I had a really hard time with immigration seeing as neither of them were what I really wanted.

Remember to vote!

Oma

One of my friends' grandmother passed away today. It's never a good thing to face. It's never fun, or heartwarming to lose someone you love, even when it ends suffering or a quality of life that you would never wish for.

When it doesn't do either it's not necessarily worse, just different. And of course, the words we can all offer are trite. They are worthless mutterings offering no warmth, no comfort. Just camaraderie.

Hopefully it's enough, because it's all I have.

beans, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time, just as they have been during the times when Oma has struggled.

You've always shown an incredibly robust passion and warmth even when the duties you performed in her care wore on you. I admire you greatly for that, and for the positive attitude that you had, even when things were hard for the both of you.


<3

B

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAWNIA!

Hope you have a fantastic day, week, and year!

Much love la ^^